I recognize the fact that I am connected to my physical body…It is a part of me…And in some ways it is me…There are times when I feel like I am fighting my body…When I feel like my body is fighting me…As if my body is letting me down…Or even intentionally trying to hurt me…Or intentionally trying to make my life more difficult…This feeling of frustration and this feeling of betrayal comes simply from wanting better…It comes from wanting to be healthier…It comes from a place of wanting to be stronger…And wanting to look at my body and love what I see…I appreciate the frustration because it wants something better for me…I appreciate my body’s desire for me to be healthier…For me to be stronger…For me to look good…Even inside this frustration I know my body is amazing…It is trillions and trillions of cells working in community…Keeping me healthy moment to moment…Allowing me to experience what is around me…There is so much I don’t have to think about…I don’t have to think about breathing…I don’t have to think about my heart beating…I don’t have to think about my food digesting…I just move through the world…I love and appreciate that my body is doing all of this…I know in each moment my body is trying to do what is best for me…I know in each moment my body is trying to do what is healthiest for me…Even if it isn’t making the healthiest choice, it is motivated by health and well-being…Sometimes my body is misinformed…I give my body permission to ask for what it needs…I give my system permission to do what it needs to do to keep me healthy…I give my body permission to state its needs…Because it is not some foreign object asking…It is me…I am it…There is no separation between my mind and body…There is no separation between my desires and what my body is doing…They feel disconnected…They feel incongruent…But I give them permission to grow and heal together as one…Because they actually are one…I give my system permission to move forward in a way that is best for all parts of me…I give myself permission to love my body…Because I am my body.
I would like something better…I would like to be successful…I would like to transform..I would like to move forward…I recognize the fact that I get in my own way…that I don’t do the actions that I want to do…that I don’t stay focused…this is really disappointing…in many cases I know exactly what to do…in many cases I know exactly how I want to do it…and I still don’t do it…it is because my system is trying to keep me safe…it is because my system is trying to keep me healthy…it is because my system doesn’t want me to be in over my head…it avoids the actions that could get me in trouble…it avoids the steps that are difficult…I appreciate the fact that my system is trying to keep me healthy in this way…I also appreciate the fact my system is working too hard…it is seeing the things that are dangerous and blowing them out of proportion…I give myself permission to create the space to make it safe for me to make difficult choices…to make it safe for me to take new actions…there are times that I do not set goals because I don’t want to face failure…my subconscious mind thinks but if I never set a goal then I will never have the opportunity to fail…I appreciate it is trying to keep me safe in this way and I recognize that it’s over functioning…it is safe for me to have dreams…it is safe for me to have goals…It is safe for me to pursue something better…
There are times that I do not take action because I don’t know how to do the action…or I don’t know the exact step to take…my system doesn’t want to waste time…my system doesn’t want to waste energy…my system doesn’t want to waste effort…the way that it does this is it prevents me trying…because if I never try anything new I can’t look foolish and stupid…I appreciate that my system is doing this to keeping me safe…but I also recognize the fact every single thing that I can do is something I had to learn how to do…at one point I couldn’t do it…everything that I can do I learned how to do…I give myself permission to allow myself to move forward in such a way that I do not need to be perfect the first time
I recognize there are times when I know what to do..I know how to do it..and I still don’t take action…because I am afraid of taking that action is not going to be good..It’s not that there’s a problem with the action…but I am worried about trying…I’m worried others are going to see me and judge me…I’m worried that others are going to dismiss my effort…I’m worried that others are going to think that I’m foolish…I’m worried that others are going to think that I’m wasting my time…I give myself permission to know that these are the actions I should be taking…to know that these are the actions that are right for me…to know that as I move forward creating this path and becoming who I am is best for me.
They’re also times that I do not take action because my system fears success…it is worried that if I work hard to be successful I will have to work hard to stay successful…it is worried that others will see me being successful at this and will be expected to be successful all the time…I’m worried that being successful is not going to be enough and I’m going to be let down…I give myself permission to know that even imperfect success is better than this…to know that as I move forward success will build on success…and more progress will come…I give myself and my system permission to know that when I don’t take action…it is just my system taking care of me…I know my system it is simply over functioning…I trust myself to take action…I trust myself to be healthy…I trust myself to move forward anyway…even when things do not work out each action brings me closer to the success that I made for.
This is a crazy time of year…It feels like there are a million things going on…Parties that friends are throwing…Parties that work is throwing…Pageant that kids are in…It feels as if every time I look at my calendar there is one more thing I have to do…It feels like a marathon…Not a celebration…And because we are going non-stop it’s hard to appreciate each event…Some of the events I feel like I have to show up to…And not that I want to be there…Not that I enjoy it…But it is a requirement…Because it’s a requirement stacked on top of many other requirements it’s anything but fun…It’s anything but enjoyable…I even start to resent it…I give myself permission to know that I am allowed to say no…I give myself permission to know I don’t actually have to do everything…I give myself permission to know I’m allowed to leave early…I don’t have to stay until the bitter end…Just because I was invited doesn’t mean I have to say yes…Many of the things that I miss notice no one will even notice…Because everybody is overly busy…I give myself permission to know it is OK for me to take care of myself…It’s OK for me to focus on my own family and not feel like I have to do everything…Many of the people who have invited me places will actually enjoy it a lot more if I visit them in January…When nobody feels overwhelmed by the holidays…This holiday season I give myself permission to take care of myself…To say no to the things that are not helpful or healthy for me to do.
I recognize the fact that I’m going to be spending some time with people I don’t necessarily like…I’m going to be spending time with them because I’ve chosen to do that…Because I’ve decided it’s the right thing to do during this holiday season…But by choosing to be there I’m not saying I agree with their world view…I’m not saying that I want to spend lots of time with them…I know that there are going to be moments where they are going to say or do something that really frustrates me…That they are going to do something that drives me crazy…More than likely I will do something that drives them crazy as well…I recognize the fact that I am allowed to navigate this in a way where I’m putting my safety and health first…I give myself permission not to engage…I give myself permission to get up and leave the room when necessary…I give myself permission to know it is OK to leave early if I know I have to…Just because I’m interacting with someone does not mean they have to take up a huge amount of space in my head…Or a huge amount of space in my heart…Sometimes we decide it is best to show up places where there are people we don’t get along with…I don’t have to do this every day…I don’t have to do this all the time…I give myself permission to not worry about it…I give myself permission to let it go the instant I walk out the door…it is OK for me to take care of myself…It is OK for me not to engage…It is OK to let this pass until I have to do it again next year…Hopefully in the next year we will all have evolved and our interaction next time will be better
I recognize I spend a lot more money during the holiday season…On the gifts that I give…The social events that I attend…The food that I bought…All of this can create a great deal of stress…I recognize the fact that much of the spending that I do is on things that I feel like I have to do…That I don’t have a choice…That I don’t have an option…That it is something I must do or other people will judge me…Because I didn’t give the right gifts…Or I didn’t give the right amount of gifts…The reality is that most of the gifts that we receive…And most of the gifts we give…Are forgotten about very quickly…Because we already have so much stuff in our lives…We might appreciate it in the moment…But then it just joins everything else that we own…I give myself permission to be much more thoughtful about my buying decisions…To be to be much more thoughtful about the choices I make…Knowing that I can give less more thoughtfully…Still letting the people I love know I love them…I give myself permission to let go of the guilt which is compelling me to buy more…It just wants me to be safe…By acting like everyone else…I give myself permission to know I don’t need to do that…I can be thoughtful…I can be deliberate about it…I can give good gifts that I am proud of and spend less…I give myself permission to let go of the social conventions of what we are supposed to give…And give in a way that makes sense to me
I recognize the fact that the holidays will become very commercialized…Recognize the fact the holidays have become super busy…And it is so easy to get caught up in the obligations, it is easy to get caught up in all of the details…This holiday season I give myself permission to carve out the time that is necessary for me…To appreciate the season for what it really means…To connect with my family traditions…To connect with my loved ones…And to connect with my spiritual beliefs…To take time to reflect…To take time to appreciate…To take time to be in the moment…Even if I have to schedule that quiet time on my calendar…I give myself permission to be deliberate and intentional…To let go of the craziness…To let go of the hubbub…And to be fully present to what is going on…To be fully present to what I want to experience…I give myself permission to make the holiday season about the part of it that is important to me…To be present in the way that I want to be present…And not be wrapped up in all of the craziness and the details
I recognize the fact that my life is not perfect…I recognize the fact that the world is not perfect…I recognize the fact there are lots of things that I would change if I could change them…I know the lives around me aren’t perfect either…But at the exact same time I appreciate the fact that there are many things that are good…There are many things that are great…Even though my body is not perfect…I am thankful to have a body to move through this world with…Even though my mind is not perfect I am thankful for my creativity…Even though my relationships aren’t perfect…I am grateful for my ability to connect with others…Even though my interactions with others aren’t perfect…I appreciate the fact that there are others who inspire me…I know the world is not perfect…But I can be thankful the exact same time…I am thankful for life…I’m thankful for choice…I am thankful for opportunity…I am thankful for inspiration…I am thankful for education…I am thankful for healing…I am thankful for transformation…I am thankful that I can learn from others…I am thankful that I can be challenged…I am thankful for a new day…I am thankful for a new opportunity…I am thankful for rest and relaxation…I am thankful for people in my life…I am thankful for challenge…I am thankful…I am thankful for time to be thankful…I am thankful…I am thankful…I am thankful…I am thankful.
I recognize the fact there is a swirl of information that is around me every single day…If I absorbed every piece of information and if I absorbed every emotion everyone experienced…Then it would be way too much…It would be overwhelming…It would be all-consuming…It would be impossible for me for me to be able to provide aid…I give myself permission to know that when I create good boundaries…I am not blocking the world out…I am not preventing those I need to be present to from having access to me…Instead I am making sure that when it is time for me to be fully present to someone in front of me that I can be fully present…As I start this day I give my sister permission to create helpful and helpful boundaries…To allow in the information that can make a difference…And to keep at bay any piece of information that is not useful to me…I know in doing this I am actually making a loving choice…Because I am ensuring that whenever I am present I am fully present…I trust my system to create helpful and helpful boundaries for me today.